An unread Book .....................

She stumbled on the old book by chance,
Don’t know what made her have a glance,
A glance through the pages and a few lines,
Along with it she took another book as it looked better and fine,

For years the old book only got a simple look,
But it still remained an unread book……….
Every year, she would read “ her kind of book”
Which belonged to a particular “look”

She often thought to read the old book some day,
But that never came her way,
Every time she cleaned the book shelf,
She would tell herself
That book is worth a read,
But it still remained a far away heed.

One day a friend saw the old book,
Borrowed or may be just took,
Liked and appreciated it to a great extent,
But never returned the book that was lent………..

May be she wanted to read it now,
But then may be didn’t know how,
Or it never occurred to her,
That she had that book ever………….

May be for her I was like that unread book

Far distant away from her thoughts and look……………
Untouched, unheard, Unknown ……..

I am my own paradox

I want to live evermore,
But accept death as the truth for sure,

Accept that happiness is a state of mind,
But still have money, career, love etc to find,


Knowledge which equips with sense,
But still never give up some innocence


A physical strength to bear any pain,
But eyes which can cry clouds of rain,

A mind which makes me so much able,
But a heart which makes me vulnerable,

A firm belief in the game of fate,
But somewhere don’t accept what destiny has to state,

A hope that keeps me sane,
But the endless wait drives me insane,

An age and maturity to make me mild,
But still I am stubborn like a child,

An urge to say it all and express,
But a restraint which forces to suppress,

A want that she loves me for some time,
But also accept that it’s not possible in this life time

A push to get away from her forever,
But somewhere wish this happens never,


There’s no beginning, there’ll be no end
I am my own worst enemy and best friend,

A simple inexplicable,
I am paradox fable

I dont remember her

I don’t need her anymore,
I don’t miss her like before,
I have removed every trace,
That will remind me of her face
I don’t remember her at all,
Even my tears don’t fall,
My dreams cease to have her,
I have forgotten her forever,
Just ………..
Find it difficult to forget,
The day, we first met.

Why is that people want me to win,
And if I loose it is treated as a sin,
Why I need to get that fame,
If I won’t, it will be a shame,

Yesterday I won and kept the promise,
Thought my sleep will be fine and nice,
But thoughts of winning kept knocking my mind,
Still a good sleep I could not find,

But today I lost a vital game,
Winner was no longer my cherished name,
Tonight I would sleep a loser,
A tired – fagged out loser,

A loss helped me find,
A sleep with a peace of mind…………..

They let me down -1

They could fall at any sight,
They would keep me awake all night,
They brought vulnerability to my existence,
They had no reason or sense,
They made me be called an “emotional fool”
They were responsible for me being a weak soul,

Then I threw them out of my life,

Their disappearance was like a gain,
Nothing mattered, not even pain,
For months and then years,
I was aloof from fears,
They were not there to scare
They were the drops of water called “tears”
Life without them was so full of excitement,
Nothing to emote and prevent,
No howls or whimpers to face,
Nothing to leave a watery trace,
There was no redness in the eye,
Finally I had forgotten to cry……….. ?

Sorry

Life with you was full of fun,
Whether it was in the moon or the sun,
With you, I had more ups than downs,
There were so many smiles and no frowns,

I wanted you to remain in my sight,
Be it the day or the night,
Then there was this fight
Where no one is wrong or right,
In a fit of anger, I ran across the road,
Without seeing the truck full of load.

I wake up in an unknown land,
I look around and can’t feel my hand,
I look for you by my side,
Then I guess that you have gone to hide,

I ask my friend where you are,
He remained silent and tend to ignore,
I could see a tear in his eye,
I guessed that, I was going to die,

I don’t know where is my grave,
But it’s your name I will always crave,
All I want to tell you is
That I always will love you,
But there is something which my mind will ever carry,
I am the one, who should have said,
I am sorry.

My Obituary

All the Facts and words in the obituary are purely mine and any living person going to be dead who copies them is liable to be prosecuted .......

God told me that I have my obituary to write,
Well being a poet, it should be a literary delight,
So with profound grief and some sorrow,
I am on my heavenly abode tomorrow,
I have just signed my not so great will,
I hope my family takes care of any pending bill,
I know some close ones will cry,
While others will give it a try,
Some will refer to me as a noble soul,
Or may be even call me an ----hole,
I was not famous or known for any big act,
I had a simple life for a matter of fact,
When I was born I didn’t play any part,
And neither will I when I depart,
I will never know who came for my funeral,
I am thankful to all who came here to the cremation place,
Also I am sorry as I will not there when they are set ablaze,

So as I write my final good bye line,
I think i will die pretty fine……………………….

Waiting

I waited for u by the sea
But u didn’t come,
I waited for u in the sun,
But u didn’t come,
Whatever be the reasons,
I waited in all the seasons,
Summers left me parched and dry,
Still waiting for u I didn’t cry,
All through the times of rain,
I was all alone in my pain,
Then came the beauty of spring,
I still held the friendship string,
The winter is here with a cold night,
I left the door open to catch your sight,
I lived for so long to see you,
Due to the promise made by you,
Now my life is coming to an end,
I waited as long as I could my friend,
I knew when you promised, u had lied,
Because if I believed you, out of joy I would have died,
I also broke my promise that I will not cry,
I am leaving this world with a wet eye…………….

Let me learn..................

Let me learn not have a smile,
Let me wait for you for a while,

Let my eyes learn to spill some tears,
Let my mind wander with fears,

Let me learn to fall on my face,
Let my heart have a sluggish pace,

Let me learn to miss you more,
May be more than before

But I know whatever I try to learn,
You is what I will always yearn,

So let me learn to die,
Before you say the final good bye.

A thought so fragile

Someone said “She is in town”,
His happiness had no bound,
The anticipation to meet her after a few years,
Left a smile and also brought tears,
The days passed and the time had come,
To meet his beloved one,
His eyes were dying to catch her sight,
He wanted to hug her so tight,
There were lots of things he planned to tell,
His experience of life as a heaven and hell,

His memories took him four years back,
When she was vulnerable and had fears,
She wanted a shoulder and someone to hear,
And he was there to hold and care,

And then he saw her standing a little away,
Their eyes met but she looked away,
He walked to her and said "hi",
She nodded back and as if she meant “bye”
There was a feeling that she was not at ease,
All words which he never said,
Were running in his head,
He said sorry and shook her hand,
He didn’t dare to hug her or even stand,
Turned back ……good bye with smile,
Just with a question….
Why is her thought so fragile?

Preserving youth

There she was an adorable woman,
The room was full of her fragrance,
But there was no way to preserve the essence,
Years later all her beauty will fade,
The attractiveness will begin to evade…………..

Left will be the memories clicked,
But they will be images of the past,
Saved on a piece of plastic,
Nothing will be there in an actual form or sense,
Which will tell her about her youthful presence?
Her hair will also be grey,
Time will have taken her youth as a prey

That day I will show the her tresses so black,
Which got entangled in my hands way back,
Somewhere her youth will be conserved,
Other than my heart ……………………….

Love " Second Time"

I cried and smiled last night,
I slept and was awake last night,
I ran and walked last night,
I wanted to die and live last night………

I saw her in my dreams once again,
I felt my heart bear a new and on old pain,
I expressed the truth and lied yet again
I held her and let her go once again,

I saw her images blur and clear at the same time
I saw the moon and sun at the same time,
I think I am in love with her for a second time
And may be its for a lifetime............................

I got it all wrong -1

I want to run towards light,
But then I get stuck in the black night,
I wish in this ocean of life someone was by my side,
And help me out of this deadly tide,

Soon I will disappear and will be gone,
All will say that I got it all wrong………

I tried so hard to win all the games,
But then could not get that wanted fame,
I sold my principles one by one,
And now I am left with none,

Soon I will disappear and will be gone
All will say that I got it all wrong………

I look for your familiar face,
But no where I can find any trace,
I wish to see your smiles,
But you are away a thousand miles,

Soon I will disappear and will be gone
All will say that I got it all wrong………

I sit down and wish to cry for a while,
But tears are no longer in the parched aisle,
I know time has come and gone,
Somewhere I got all my life and love so wrong…………………………………

Miss you

The pages of time could not turn back,
As both of us left on different tracks,
Time never waited for anyone,
For us too it had come and gone,
I think was it I who wanted more than you gave,
And somewhere did I dig the friendship’s grave,
Or was it you who was never willing to provide,
Which hit our relation like a high tide?

The memories go in a chaotic haze,
As I look back the life’s pace
Its not that you’re ignoring me gave me painless scars,
I also gave you some agonizing wounds to your heart,

We may be busy again tomorrow,
Lost on our own laughs or sorrow
May not have time to think about each other,
As if we were never together,

I don’t know how we drifted apart,
But your thoughts always linger in my heart,
I don’t know whether you missed me any day,
But I wish that my thoughts glide in your mind someday,

And you’ll realize that it doesn’t matter how our friendship fares,
But I still have the same heart which cares………………..

I SEE HER

I hear her laughter,
Filling up the still air.
I see her freedom in her dance,
As if she wants to give life another chance
Then her eye catches my sight
She acts, reacts and pretends
Then ignores me to no end,
I see her eyes change the color,
With a moist lash and tear,
She deftly moves her hand across her face,
So as to hide any watery trace.
I sense her heart cry,
She's crying all the while......
But then she brings a silly smile
I see her vanish in front of my eyes,
As she thinks I am a spy,
I feel her presence,
Even in her absence,
Her true story that she may hide.
The sadness of her soul is what I recognize.

Lonely Vacuum

The stoned eyes devoid of a tear,
As if they had no fear,
A mosey vacuity in the mind,
With nothing left to find.
The heart invulnerable to any ache,
Love seemed a feeling so fake,
The body was burnt not by the fire,
But her expressions and her ire,
Why could not she feel my heart?
Why was it so easy for her to depart?

I wish that she could tell me what to mend,
I was somewhere left alone by a friend……………………….

The CLOWN

I wish was a clown
People will smile even if I frown,
They would see me make a funny face,
This will hide any of my pains trace
As I clown, I would get used to be laughed at
And it would not matter if I looked fat,
It would not matter if I was not the dark or handsome,
I will have to look like a fool for a paltry sum,
I will not be expected to have wisdom,
As my job would be to just act dumb,
i will dance on my feet,
so as to hide my defeat

But then i think i dont need any colorful garb or gown?
As I think god made me a natural CLOWN,

Beauty of red

The fragrance so pure,
hearts melt for sure,
The feel of silk or velvet,
A touch makes your hand wet,
My fingers touch the scarlet,
it made my hands go red
That was the feel of love,
They were meant for someone....

The color was the beautiful crimson.............

The scarlet now was jaded,
the color had faded,
the feel was of gone forever,
but still my hand was wet,
it was again the scarlet red,
This was the new feel of love,
no longer we wanted to see other,
someone who was so near
but her memories were now a pain to bear,

the thorn of the rose had ripped my hand,
leaving a pool of sickening red.............

Something called love

One of few friends often smiles at me, when i speak about love . He often asks me "what is there in this feeling called love" ,
so here i am trying to help him understand what this fuss is all about

Love could be a macho man,
or for that matter even a stubborn woman,
love could be your friend,
but also a deadly foe.
Above all a recipe for joys and woe.

then you ask why put up with madness?
why take such tears of happiness?
which makes people sick,
but then thats loves trick,
Its call is so tempting,
you want it all or nothing,
Its gentle yet crude kind of feeling,
It will hurt you badlyWhile it works its healing.
I can talk all the time or forever,
And still not know what to say.
It can change its form within a day.
But this to you,
I must confess,
that i dont know whether you are lucky,
not being part of this mess.

But nothing is so painfully delighful,
then the fact of being hopelessly in love .....................................

Life never stopped then why did ........................someone

The clock on the wall never stopped,
Whatever may happen it would make a sound,
Tick tock, tick tock all around.
The sun would always come back the next day,
And bring with it the new ray,
The moon would always bring its glow each night,
The waves may leave the shore,
But they come back just like as before,
The birds fly away as they are free,
But they always come back to the same tree,

Everything of this life would come back,
But then why did he lose the track,
When everything turned normal again,
Why he could never forget the pain,
when life and time around him never came to a halt,
Then why did he stop because of someone's Fault…..