I Died Last Night

The eyes had didn’t have any tears left,
The moist lashes were a thing of the past,
Nothing could bring the water down,
The face even was devoid of smile or frown,
It looked like as if it was like a stone,
Just made of flesh and bone,

The heart beat was boring and slow,
As if the blood had no flow,
But there were some questions in his mind,
Whose answers he could never find,
The fight between love and hate,
The battle between desire and fate,

The feelings had been slayed with a blunt blade,
Even the memories now had begun to fade
The sky depicted the life’s track,
As it turned from blue to black,
Soon it would turn into a morning blue,
As if life had something new,
The soul was still alive,
But there was a fact in the current plight,

I had died last night…………………………………..

The Bitter Medicine

It is difficult to understand what is bitter?Is it the unreciprocated love? Is it the unresponsive friendship? Is it someones ignorance ? the list could be endless.........................
As a kid i thought the most bitter thing in this world was the medicine i used to have , i would cry and run away but my brother would catch me and force me to have it, and the he would give me a tofffee so that my taste buds would feel better.It was such a magical cure ,but today I am grown up,bitterness has changed in its form and also its effects.

It refuses to go away.How much amount of sweets i may take, it refuses to go.I wondered why was it so ,i tried to reason but struggled, why was this bitterness of a friend, a lover leaves such bad and long lasting taste? why is so difficult to get over ................................whenever our feelings are hurt , whenever our friendship is questioned ? when someones doesnt want us in their life ?
and so on ......................but all these have a common factor
" All humiliate us and our dignity"
there is no harm in being humililated.

Humiliation is a bitter medicine and an honest man should drink with pride

Talk to Darkness

Today I want to go away from any
light,
I want darkness in my sight,
I know the darkness is sitting in the
corner,
Waiting for me to come to her,
There is a truth I know
Darkness is a deadly foe,
She remains quiet; she scares, and then
stings,
But tonight I am ready for anything,
No longer can she remain
silent assassin,
And make me cry for all my sins,
There is so much to ask
and tell,
I know darkness will hold my hand,
And take me to an unknown
land.
In the long cold alleys I walked,
For the first time we
talked,
There was no fear in my mind,
That night I had some new things to
find,
I discovered that darkness was alone,
She told me whenever she comes
in sight,
Everyone turns towards the light
She has no one as her friend,
Everyone wants her to
end……………………………

for me she was now beautiful,

she was the truth so clear,

with her around me i will have no fear.......

Your Name

People generally write their beloveds name,
With the drops of their blood,
Or in some way to get their love fame,
I didn’t write your name with my blood,
Neither, I carved it on a piece of wood,
I don’t have anything to prove,
Neither have I needed anyone to approve,
So I looked for a way to express the sweet pain,
I went out and took few drops of rain,
Then I wrote your name,
What ever I wrote,
No one can ever see or sense,
But the world around me has your fragrance…

A tommorow with/out you.

A few days back ,my school friend asked me what if tommorow starts with us not being there.
i started to think, and this is what i could say

When tomorrow comes without me,
and tears fill your eyes for me,

When you may think that i am gone away,
to a world far far way,

When you miss the times we had,
whether they were good or bad.

When you start looking at old snaps,
when you start reading the old mails again,

And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me.

There may be so many things we could never say,
And i know you will wet your eye, just like you did that day.


But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
that i am always there to hold your hand.

And tommrow for me will also start without you,
It is impossible to beleive , that I am leaving you.

If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
i will just do anything to see you smile


there will never be tommorow when we will be apart,
Because you are always in my heart.

Life as it is

As I live through life there are always those times
While running in this long race ,
the choices were hard, and solutions seemed scarce,
And circumsatnces held me back.
I lost the sight of the track.


There were days when i would cry,
so would my soul,
and then i wish i could
disappear in a Black hole,


but then something changed,
it was time to be rough
The process of change was tough,
But all in my mind was the excitement ahead.......

There were adventures which i never imagined
Waiting for me around the corner
were wishes and dreams just about to come true

I found friendships that led to new things
with ups and downs,
a few smiles and frowns,
life gave me with so many reason to live,
it was love . it was care,
it was smile with a tear...

I went to places i never expected
And see things that i had never seen,
and in all this pace
I discovered myself in between!


I found someone i could love and care,
with whom i had feelings to share,
I held her hand and heard my heart beat,
i wrote and sang for her,
they were days to cherish and remember.

life taught me and i was ready to learn....
and i learnt



keep walking all the way,
Live everyday as a new day...
There are lot of surprises life holds up its sleeve-
Don't look back! I am not going that way!

defining moments

we sometimes are in a real dilemma that what should we do in case of defining moments.
for instance there is a situation where we have to choose between a family function or an official meeting, should we attend the best friends wedding or go for an official visit.
in my short life so far i have been in a dilemma so many times , i remember a day when 2 of my closest buddies went for the same interview and one of them got selected , there was a freind who had tears and was sitting in a state of shock and rejection and the other one was on top of the world and was just enjoying the moment and both of them were in mfront of my eyes, it was so difficult to choose , whom to go first?

i know there are gonna be many more instances like this in my latter part of the life and i dont know what will i do then ................
till then ..................